Resolutions can suck it!

January is about halfway through, and I have yet to live up to any of my resolutions. And for the interested reader, here they are in no particular order:

- cardio no less than 3x a week Specifics: I mean to say "lose 10 pounds" as well as "go to the gym 3x a week", but really, some days I get to my car and think "Hell no, I'm not going to the gym today." Normally, this would then mean that I should walk or do some home yoga/Pilates for at least 3o minues. Again, who am I kidding? Actually, that's not fair. About 2-3 weeks ago, I was "running" (i.e.- Grandma jogging) 2 miles a day. I can do it. I just lack motivation.

-stop cussing Specifics: see the above statement. I swear, one day I'm gonna slip in front of my kids at work. I just know it. Plus, I feel like a giant hypocrite when I write them up for cussing (and most of the time when they use it, it's hilarious! "She called a 'bitch' and said my braids were nappy.' Come on - that's comic gold!

-brush & floss daily Specifics: ok, so I'm really prone to gum inflammation, so this one is for my own good. Plus, my dentist is super nice and the first time I went to see him for a cleaning, when it was all over he looked at me and said, "Mrs. Waters, ....your gums scare me." Who wants scary gums? Not me.

- Let it ride Specifics: as a sometimes "uptight" person, this is more personal that the rest. Case in point = bureacratic school/district b.s. I could be upset about it, spend time denouncing it & ranting & raving to all who will listen how morally wrong it is & how we're told to have high expectations for the kids when in reality I'm supposed to accept garbage........I could go on. But I won't. I'll "let it ride". I'll do what I'm told to do with/without a smile on my face. I'll realize that I'm making a small difference in teeny tiny ways, and maybe that's all I'm supposed to do. It is what it is, and all I really have to do is wait for this wave to go out & the next one to come in. Because we all know, another wave is always on its way in.

So, perhaps instead of calling these "resolutions", I should call them "habits". Habits can be good; dental hygiene, for example. And habits can be developed. I don't remember the math exactly, but I think I'm supposed to complete an action like 7 or 14 times in order for it to be on its way to becoming a habit. So, basically, if I work out every week, 3x a week, for a little over a month, it will then be a habit. If I substitute another word for "shit" or "fuck" at least 14 times (or maybe over 14 days??), I'll be on the road to language recovery. If I feel my toes curling, my stomach knotting, my shoulder muscles scrunching up around my ears, my inner bitch clawing her way to the surface and I remember to BREATHE and go with the flow and be thankful I have a job for 14 days (or 14 times it happens), I'll loosen up somewhat.

Hell, if I can achieve even one of these, I'll be so proud I could bust. I'm hoping to hit the gym tomorrow for at least 30 minutes of cardio, maybe some weights, and mark it on my calendar. Day 1, ...13 more to go .

She is back from the Dead!!

Sooooo.....it's been a long time. A year? Over a year? Sorry for the wait. And I apologize to those who read this & supported it, then gave up on it when I failed to publish anything else. Life & other crap got in the way, what can I say?

This will be short, but wanted to say that one of my resolutions this year (not counting the perpetual "lose weight" and "stop cussing" ones) will be to keep this blog up better. Maybe up the ante to once a week or so. I shall try. You know, I used to like to write. I was good at it. I used to be a giant nerd (ok, "used to be" is up for debate) that would watch movies or read books & think, "Boy, I could write a GREAT paper on the symbolism in here." I still think that, a lot. Of course, why write a paper that no one will ever read? For my own joy? Pshaw!

Well, at any rate, I'm warming myself up with this entry. Getting the fingers primed, the gears turning, and the thoughts brewing. Please, feel free to bust me on it if I fail to publish a blog in 2 weeks. Seriously.